My mom died yesterday a year ago and I'm tired but can't sleep and my tattoo feels weird. I got to hang out with Kyle, which always fills me with joy still. Today he was sad, things aren't going so hot for him either. I love Kyle very much, so I hope things then around for him soon and he starts feeling stronger and more accomplished again. I'm really lucky to still have him in my life.
I also still miss stupid Ramzi quite a lot and I keep asking myself "why?" And my vague answer is "the connection we had was on point and also the sex was great" but maybe that was only me and maybe Kyle and I are the only two people capable of being truly close even though we dated and there's been all that lovey Dovey gunk on my end.