I feel really terrible and guilty and I hate that I gave you an ultimatum, and I hate that I feel like I had to do it. I hate all of that. I was trying to do what seemed best for both of us and it feels terrible and I feel like I've done something far worse than you've ever done.
I know you made the choice. I know it, I know it, I know it. And I clearly haven't given up on you, I still want to be there for you. You chose to make me leave your life.
I'm an idiot. I hate this.