i feel like i'm a horrible person
i feel like i probably deserve these things
i feel like i probably have ruined the people who loved me
i feel like i probably don't deserve love. i have done something wrong, i don't know what it is, but i am unfixable and i am unlovable.
i want to deserve love
i want to be a good person
i try very hard to be a good person
but, at heart, i think i may be just a really terrible person who doesn't belong in anyones lives.
i am afraid that i go for the abuse because i don't know anything else
i'm afraid i deserve it
i don't think anyone will ever treat me right
i'm afraid i don't even know what right is or if i even like it
and who am i to deserve it
i try to do good things
but i think i probably made these things happen
because i am probably the worst.