Friday, December 23, 2011

You haven't loved me for ages, huh?
Did you ever?

You moved on immediately
And you're dreaming of another girl already.

Why do I do this to myself. Fuck it.

Monday, December 19, 2011

i wish it wouldnt keep coming to this.
i can't believe i'm here again. my heart is shit.
it feels so sad. i was sad after brian, sure. i was completely crushed after jeff.

i don't think i've ever felt this empty and sad though. i have never felt more like this was the wrong decision. like i've lost the most important thing to me. i remember being hysterical over jeff, and i did care a lot. i cared a lot about that. i loved jeff very much. he was the love of my life.

i love kyle very much too. he felt like the person for me. it breaks my heart. i feel like there's nothing left to me, because all of it left with him.

its different than jeff. i don't even have it in me to be hysterical. i'm too crushed. it hurts so bad.