it feels so sad. i was sad after brian, sure. i was completely crushed after jeff.
i don't think i've ever felt this empty and sad though. i have never felt more like this was the wrong decision. like i've lost the most important thing to me. i remember being hysterical over jeff, and i did care a lot. i cared a lot about that. i loved jeff very much. he was the love of my life.
i love kyle very much too. he felt like the person for me. it breaks my heart. i feel like there's nothing left to me, because all of it left with him.
its different than jeff. i don't even have it in me to be hysterical. i'm too crushed. it hurts so bad.